somewhere over the rainbow;

Friday, June 23, 2006

i used to describe life is like a rpg game..however the biggest difference is that in life,we have no "save point" where we can "save" up our game and playback or reset to play again if we played the game wrongly..in life,we cannot afford to make wrong decisions, and the stakes are too big at times..even if i felt regretted about my "way" of playing this game, lao tian ye din't want to give me a single chance to redeem myself..he left me with no choice and push me to a dead end..i'm not greedy this time round, i just want to take back what's belonging to me..that's all..nothing more..

only illusions;

10:37 AM

today i have the most unimpressive feeling and borest feeling of my so-called special day of the year so far for 23 years,humans are greedy and practical creatures and often they will not be satisfied easily (i'm human too),they want more,i'm not a bit happy about today,at times i feel i'm feeling more down than other days,been sick for the past 2 weeks ever since before my final paper til now haven't recover yet,been sleeping for 3/5 of the day,keep lying on bed to get past time, and finally decided to wake up around 2pm,had a mini-celeb with dar with a cake she bought for me at sweet secrets,i can't eat with my busted throat,my throat is like the ozone layer ( feels like there's a big hole),surprisely there's a total of 11 people who remembered my bday (such an insignificant day),the most ironic part is that none of my family members remember today is my bday,but i guess it's normal for a family like mine...last but not least thanks to those 11 people, namely yanran aka darling,jingyou aka jy xiao zi,lynette aka nette,eunice aka xiong di,weiboon aka keith tan,hanwen,qiuhui aka xiaomei,joanna aka ah jo,shiling,sihui aka de great,lizhe aka lizard...greatly appreciated..thanks~

only illusions;

4:58 PM

suddenly feel that things people say now may not always be the same when time passes.people think that they will be able to do what they preach but in fact when a real-life scenario happens it may not be the same as what u tink u will do.

people do change after awhile... it is how u look at it that matters.beautiful?Ugly? all depends on individual's perceptions of things....i tink i've grown to feel that everyone has their own life & they are responsible for themselves & need not care how people look at them.. so if you're someone who thinks that ur frens are drifting away from you,u just need to ask if u're happy NOT ur whether they are happy anot!!!!

it maybe a selfish thought but people onli live once and live life to ur fullest & happiest.that's the true you!!

sometimes when u tink that the person u feel close to will feel the same as you do but it may not be so especially with guys.people who do not reciprocate are true losers cos they are not aware of people who care for them sincerely.even thou it may be silent but it doesnt mean its not there..so dun feel upset when u're not reciprocated,there will always be someone else who will cherish you!!! hahaaaa...

only illusions;

9:17 PM