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Sunday, March 26, 2006

Weijie's official bankruptcy date: 26th March 2006
I declared bankrupt today. Totally defeated.
Officially broke.
Leave me alone. I just wanna be alone.
Weijie rest in peace.

only illusions;

9:46 PM

How i wish this week has never happened at all in my life.
It's the toughest week of my life.
Worst week so far in 22 years.
Been on a losing streak for around 10 consecutive games.
Newton's 3rd Law of Motion acted on me. For every action, there's a same and opposite reaction. And so whatever match i bought, indeed the opposite team will win or i simply won't win in any ways.
It has been a cruel week for me and i suffer quite a lot. Lots of grievances.
Humans are indeed just ordinary people, we can't win our destiny nor can we defeat fate.
Face it, this is life.
But life goes on, rich or poor, happy or sad, we still live our life.
I miss Luck a lot.
Hope that Luck will befall onto me from this moment onwards til forever.

only illusions;

10:58 PM

1 more thing forgot to say. I also want to say sorry to my gf because i don't even know that she don't like to eat hot beancurd.

only illusions;

7:25 PM

Don't really know why but i just wanna ask sorry to jy,ben & liansoon for disturbing their studying. (Really mean it guys, just an apology for jioing u all mj whereby we all should be working hard studying for final exams). Suddenly feel guilty and full of thoughts (maybe due to a whole day of hu si luan xiang). All 3 of them replied me the same thing, saying that they are studying and i indeed should feel ashamed. Last time i used to talk to jy about my xin shi, but i realised i don't have the courage to say anymore. I tend to hide from my problems nowadays. I try to avoid and don't face up to my problems. Another thing may be i feel that i should not bother jy about my problems because everyone has their own problems. But i realised jy has changed. Can't really say is turned for better or worse, just feel that he's different from the jy i knew more than a year ago. That's normal i guess. Anyway bro, thanks for being there for me to listen to my crapping and bullshit all these while.

only illusions;

5:12 PM

Life is so unpredictable. 1 second she can be that nice to you, the other second, things turned nasty. This implies to daily life as well. Today was one, my mum was very ill. I guess this is the 1st time in 22years that i've seen her looked so pale and unwell. She was fine early in the morning when i just woke up. I even spoke to her and she looked so normal. Then few hours later my dad called back said mum is already on the way back(because she went work at usual), she kept vomiting. So i waited at the door for her returned. The 1st moment i saw her, she was a different person from the mum i saw this morning. She definitely looked weak and was in cold sweat. I touched her forehead and realised it's indeed very cold. i asked her whether she wants to see doctor and i will go downstairs to take the queue for her, but she insist that she wanted to have a rest 1st and decide later whether she wants to go to the clinic. Eventually i still accompany her to the clinic in the afternoon as she still feel very unwell. Hopefully she will recover asap. I guess life is fragile too. Never take things for granted, where i can disappear just like that. I may just vanished and gone forever.

only illusions;

4:57 PM

Just a chorus of a song i'm listening to now:

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

only illusions;

4:49 PM

I feel like an understudy waiting in the wings, but not to worry - i'm sure my time in the spotlight will soon be here. Meanwhile, i shall study my lines and make preparations so that i can really knock 'em dead.

only illusions;

10:36 AM

i miss my dEarIe, My tV, My bEd, My aIr-cOn(too cold in my grandma's place)....haha

spent the last 2 days at my grandma place in M'sia... finally everything is settled and im glad everything was good !! eventhough there maybe many rituals to go through but i think its all worth it cos its all for my grandparents. hope that they will find a better life in the other world.get to meet up with my other cousins ever since cny... of course,lots of updates here & there.. was quite fun too...its a good place to stay in for some quite moments.

today i experience that "lang lai le" story is very true. when someone does something wrong time & again..no one will believe that he is not the culprit when something happen.of course its not up to me to interfere.so ppl,take it as a reference & never commit such a mistake.

only illusions;

11:59 PM

one of the luckiest thing on earth befall upon dear today ...

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11:38 PM

how i wish i am Bill Gate's son...think my only few problems is being careful of being kidnapped and must trouble over how to spend Bill Gate's wealth...i guess rich people have lesser problems,and even if have more problems, i rather choose to be rich...

only illusions;

12:45 AM

i don't want to go for exams...
i don't want to study my life away...
i don't want to gossip with people...
i don't want to be troubled by tiny gritty things...
i don't want to be so mean & demanding....
i don't want to think about anything...

i just want a simple life...
i just want to do nothing & sit down at cb to chill out in the afternoons...
i just want to travel around the world to see beautiful things & people...

eventhough i know its difficult to enjoy a simple life..i will try to achieve it.. BUT who knows when im able to do so????

only illusions;

12:22 AM

im really tired...facing all sorts of problems that are happening around me...every years,months,weeks,days,hours,seconds,basically every moments...problems arise out of no where,so unexpectedly that i don't know how to handle them anymore...things are getting out of hand,and my poor run of luck continues...i thought my luck turn for better after i finally got my refund back,but it proves me wrong...i had a great "fall" again...today is 1 of the worst day(considering on weekly basis)...had a full-day of exam from morn til evening already squeeze me dry with no energy to walk,talk and think...followed by a series of unfortunate events (long story,lazy to type)...i guess is easier to talk to a blog rather than to find people to listen to my complains and LO-SOness...compared to last year's mock,i made tremendous efforts to study for my mock papers,but it din turn out the way i want it to be,simple words=i simply fluke my papers...i'm damn dulan with myself for cf because i even forgot the most basics...then after cf paper still have to take hrm, whereby i already very tired and have no mood at all...so after i received the question paper,i decided to sleep for 15mins before i start writing...i wrote at super sonic speed and finished by 4pm and left the hall...i thought this is the end of the day,but actually is the start of the day (refering to unluckyness)...i'm just too bothered with too many problems arising around me...every moment is like a problem-solving session where i have to brain-storm all by myself to try to solve every problem using the best possible method...sounds challenging ar? u all better pray hard don't end up like me and don't have anything similar to me in this way...2006 simply sux for me big time round...i hate 2006!!!

only illusions;

12:16 AM

my brain is exhausted after these few days of mugging...this period of the year feel so monotonous...every day is so similar and i feel that i'm living everyday the same way...nothing special about my life...ironic life...perhaps i'm old le,forgets easily whatever i've studied...can't seems to drill the stuffs into my peanut brain...the only consolation is that this is just a mock exam (won't be counted anyway)...so maybe i just can't be bothered...but the feeling sux when u know people around u have all studied a lot (or more than u do), then u will either strive harder or be de-moralised and slack somemore...luckily (for me only, to some others, it is unfortunately) usually when it comes to exams, i don't really mind if i got lower marks or lousier results than people around me as long as i know i've got the results i want can le...as the saying goes: Ren Bi Ren,Qi Si Ren...but i really want dar to get good marks, because she really deserves good marks...she studied very hard and put in lots of efforts for exams, but she have no luck (due to poor planning of the exams timetable that makes her disadvantage in the exams)...so the both of us needs luck to be blessed upon us til we die...whahaha...

only illusions;

2:37 PM

tiring day once again...cover a lot of walking distance (walk all over orchard road)...go sch meet dear and went town with jo and nette, go lucky plaza makan (the foodcourt's food is exp)...then shop for my slippers and see if there's any nice clothings (long time never buy clothes)...went over to taka to find kenneth who is working at Guess, woo...i'm impressed, he sure looked yandao in Guess attire...but i can understand that working in sales line can be damn boring...he looked tired (just like me feeling tired always when at work)...then we continue to shop for stuffs as the gals are looking for bags...in the meantime also waiting for boon to meet us (he's wols man)...always seems like a busy guy (duno busy with what)...boon dressed quite cool as well and he's aiming for many stuffs to buy (as i said, he's made of money)...but he claims that he's NOT, because he's made of CASH instead...what can i say,he's damn freaking rich...anyway "good" for him as he's going to be "jobless" soon (i guess he rather be "jobless")...i realised the stuffs boon's aiming are all "skater-boy theme"...what he lack is a skateboard to make him complete...and not to forget,must match with boxers...haha...i don't understand why must spend $16 to cut his this hairstyle now, i can cut for him for less than $10...walk non-stop for like few hours til around 7+ then we ciao liao...going home for dinner...too bad my mum already booked me for dinner, if not will stay to eat with them...overall it's really nice to have their company as always...take care~

only illusions;

11:05 PM

smiley face~ (artwork by darling)

only illusions;

5:23 PM

Lyrics of a song i'm listening to now:

Girl you know I miss you so
I didn't know you had to go
You've had enough of our distance baby

Before I had the chance to say
I'm staying with you
For the rest of my life

Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was

I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame

I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

only illusions;

7:34 PM

this early morning went back to Lim Chu Kang Camp II for mobilisation brief...hai...it's a total waste of time...somemore early in the morning travel so far, reached there ard 7:45am...actually wanted to jio zhiguang (childhood friend) for breakfast at the canteen (so qiao he same camp as me but different squadron)...but msg him at 7+ then he 9+ then reply,i already wanted to go home liao, so in the end also never meet up...the stupid brief ended at ard 9:40am, after that can go liao...waste my time sia...ns simply sux...waste all the guys' time in their life...after that headed straight home (the air in the camp is "polluted")...saw lots of familiar faces during the brief, all the people who serve together during that period seems to become strangers le...that's reality...face it people...1 more shit thing about this whole piece of shit is that i was told that we're suppose to prepare our fieldpack and compulsory to bring along fieldpack during mobilisation (where last time we only need to go back in uniform to scan our 11B only)...now so troublesome...and my fieldpack items think MIA le...this total thingy just sux to the core...

only illusions;

5:01 PM

went to town to buy my crumpler bag today...tiring...the stupid crumpler online haven't refund me my money, have been waiting for the refund for almost 2 weeks!!! to all:not reccomended to buy crumpler online, not reliable, i'm one poor victim...money deducted from my account le,then tell me out of stock,so will cancel the transaction and refund me my money...kaoz!!! since then i have been waiting for my refund money til today have not received...scare my money is cheated...money cheated is small problem, but being cheated and treated like a fool is big problem for me!!! today got big news...mum just told me she got "insider information" that my dad may be going in my uncle's place to Papua New Guinea (should be somewhere in New Zealand) for 3 months!!! because my aunt got "stones" growing in her stomach and she needs to go for operation, so my uncle has to stay in Singapore to take care of the children and my aunt...so i guess my dad also have no choice...i was taken aback for awhile because i don't really know it's a good news or bad news to me...feeling tired and sian...my face sux!!!

only illusions;

4:35 PM